Oh well,

I was wondering why i could fall in love with her so badly.





I usually dun believe in this kind of stuff, but... oh well, guess it's inevitable then.

In case u are wondering,

It didn't work out. T_T

Jiayi. :P

Current Mood: contemplative

U know,

They are people who shouldn't be doing certain things.

Some people just couldn't drive a car, but they still keep trying to get a driving license either thou they just couldn't.

Some people just not able to do mathematics

Some people just dun understand art.

Some people just will never be able to use a telescope.

And there are people like me who should not have fallen in love.

: (

The vinegar isn't dried up yet.

Current Mood: confused

thing i noticed these few years.

Gals are usually more emotional then guys.

however,

When it comes to a relationship, guys tends to be more sentimental then gals. Gals tend to rationalise everything, guys usually dun think too much abt it...

well...

shld I give up?

I did promised to try until the vinegar dries up...

Guess I'll do just tat...

Current Mood: disappointed

was at sentosa friday nite, stayed overnite till saterday morning. found a few new objects. but then hor, might as well start an object list. :P

think i can remember locating,

M54, 38
NGC 2362, 362, 104.

I'm sure there is a few more stuff, just can't remember.

anyway, today i sort of finalised 3 laws.

1) whatever you think happened, didn't.
2) whatever you think might happened, wouldn't
3) thus, there is no need to think.

sigh. All that i have done thus far, was for nothing... i wonder what could be more saddening.


dun think.

if i'm dead, i wouldn't think rite? but to die would mean that it will happen, thus a result of thinking, thus it would happen. and there will be a need to think. yet, if i then dun die, it wouldn't happened...... hmm... nvm...

haha, my first video where the script is written by me!!!!, thou not much of a script... lol. Also, my first time directing and editing the movie too. =) For all the NUS Engineers out there, join rag 08 now!!!

Current Mood: accomplished

Wow. I could actually forgotten all about this little site for 31 weeks. Not was written, for a full 31 weeks. From the last entry, I have written some stuff about last year's rag. Come to think of it, I'm sort of helping out with this yr's rag as well.

I guess it also think to post that last yr's rag won most enviromental friendly float. This yr we are aiming for something bigger, better, and flashier.

For unknown reasons, lately i have been thinking of this gal. I'm not sure why but I couldn't help stop thinking of her. And nope, dun worry guys, it is not jess or a jess look-a-like. (LOL)

But now i'm having doubts. I wonder she the right gal. Thinking i should spend more time to know her. But now, all of a sudden, i thinking, am i worthly?

Haha, btw, i just gave a talk last sat on astrophotography, and Jing Peng said that the participants found it cool. haha, think would use the same materials for the next society meeting le. haha.

Current Mood: worried

Some of you might have known by now that I'm helping out with Rag construction. So far so good, progress is limited by the budget. Waiting for the money to come in before the final push. In case u dun noe what NUS rag is, it is something akin to chingay, we have to built a float, there will be dancers dancing, and etc etc. I am now some sort of building the structures for them. Basically i designed the float, built it, and maintain it. Well, we would have finished with everything if the stupid eng club gave us our budget on time. I have like stopped work twice due to a lack of budget to buy materials. Well, during one of the stoppages, William gave me a crazy idea to work on. One night, he took a ratan and attached a fishing line to it. When I asked him about what he was doing, he said he was making an arrow. Later did i realise that he was just trying to measure the cruvature of the first tier. That got me wondering, what if i could make a bow.

So i did made a bow. And some arrows to boot. Guess what, the arrows prieced thru an apple!!! Guess i do have a talent to make weapons of m.... small destrution. HAHA

Current Mood: crazy

It has been a while since i posted anything on this blog. I'm a bit surprised that i still remembered the password after so long. =P

Anyway, since my absence, a lot of things has happened. Astrobash was great. Clear skies, wonderingful view, only thing is the weather during the second day. Bought a new scope for $700. It is a goto 4 inch refractor, Nexstar 4. Helped out with astrochallange. And you know what, Round 3 was designed by me, and i set the observation questions. It was quite a shame that most schools did not fare will with drawing. it was all very disappointing. If Charlie knew what his junior drew, his juniors is so gonna get it. BIG TIME.

Now, i'm kind of engaged with eng rag. At fist i joined rag to see how they make the floats for the events, anticipated that seniors will be ard to guide. Guess what, no seniors!!! During the first meeting when Alvin, eng rag director, showed us the designs, i kid of felt it was unstable. and i helped out designing the shell, which he wasn't sure on how to go abt doing it. Ended up i came up with the design, Alvin and Ethan came up with the numbers. Keep a look out for eng rag, its gonna be a hugh one. (That's all i'm telling. hehe)

The main reason of the absence was really abt something my friend made me interested on. I never believe in a personal God, not just becos of science, but also personal experenices. Uni does change a person. For me, I learn that there is never an absolute answer. There is no right and wrong. So why is it that people believes that their religion is right and others are wrong? One particular religion preaches that other religion are a creation of the devil (similar in line of thinking). I mean, who gave the right to the religious to condemn others? The recent riots in thailend that was spaked off when the gov refuses to make buddism an offical religion, not to mention the war in Iraq, pakistan, etc.

But the same friend asked me the same question. Why be active against religion? That stop me for quite a while. To prevent war? but wars have been started by people who convert power, and use religion as a tool. To show the truth of the world where God doesn't exist? but as i had mentioned, there is no right or wrong to any issue.

My strongest agurement is that they retard the growth of human intellect. By saying everything is created by God, one would not be encouraged to find out why a event occur. And it is thru those discoveries that science was born. As more and more discoveries are made, we enravel a bit more about the universe ard us. and the area which science holds no answer gets smaller everyday.

Second, ppl always claimed that there must be a purpose in life. And a higher order decided it a long time ago. But must we have a purpose in life? Purpose is defined by a individual, not by some non-existent God. We define our lives.

Third, i believe our morals are created by man. In diff soc, diff morality exists. Some culture thinks that been homosexual is wrong, other feels that it a natural thing that occurs in nature. They are people who thinks hitler is right (most unfortuanetly), there are people who believes that Gandi is not as kind as he seems. And they have the evidence to support their claims.

Fourtly, the mission of the christian grp in NUS states, to convert the lost souls of the undergards of NUS. Which is VERY offensive to me. In my point of view, they are the lost souls, and i pity them as each day goes by.

In short, I believe, as much as the religious do, that i know how this world works. And similarily, i believe it is my duty to spread what i considered as the truth to as many people who are willing to listen to it.

I haven't been updating for a very long time. Mostly its becos the exams and the recent discussion i had with my friend. Both of us have a atheistic view of the world and were considering of creating what seems like a atheis movement.

I was having doubts on whether i should do that. I have seem what religion has done for certain people, be it self deceiving or the placebo effect, there are benefits to religion. and i leave it at that.

But a recent conversation with a friend convinced me that this is a cause worthly of my full attention. I have learnt the importance of asking questions as a virtue. But my friend, been deeply religious to Christianity was the catalyst of this change. given the incoherent of the bible, matthew traces jospeh's descent from David via 28 intermediate generations, while luke has 41 generations,(while there is no overlap in the names). To show that, if the gospel is influnced by God, it is make imperfect by man, and thus a possibility (note the usage of possibility) that the religion is imperfect. He said it is wrong to think that way. more imptly, the way he ended the conversation, " well i don't want to talk anymore. Faith is something that only believer understand." Of course i dun understand, i dun accept anything as fact just becos i'm told that it is so.

My atheistic friend argued that why this is a worthy cause, one effect of religion was that the faithful stop asking questions. The faithful would do anything they are told. And the faithful can be manipulated. Like osama bin laden, from a certain view (flawed from our moral standards, and mine standards as well) is holy. the very thought that the terrorist consider it holy may send chill down my spine, but it is what drive the sucide bomber to do what they do.

For that, i must stop faith. I want people to question, not just in schools, newspapers, the media, parents, government, etc. I also want people to question their religion as well. But admittably, who am i to tell ppl how to live their lives.

To the mathamatical incline, i gotten this song from a friend and i tried to write down its lyics. But i'll bet the ave maths major will realise tat i wrote sth wrong. So do update me on the spelling.

Song : Finite simple group of order two.

The path of love is never smooth
but mine contiuned as for you
You're the, upper bond in the chains of my heart
You're mine excilonent choice you know its true.
but lately our relations not so well define
And i just can't function without you.

I'll prove my proposition and i sure you'll find,
We are a finite simple group of order two.

I'm losing my identity
I'm getting tenser everyday...
And with our lose of generality
I will assume that you seal the same way...
Since everytime i see you you just close my alps
The faithful image that i map into...

But when we're one to one You see what i'm about
cos we a finite simple group of order two.

Our eqilibirum was stable
A principle of bundles sitting deep inside
But then you drove a wedge between our two froms
and now everything is so complexified...

When we first meet we simply connected
My heart was open but too dense.
Our system was already directed
To have a finite limit in some sense.
I'm living in a canale of a rank 1 math.
From my domain its image looks so blue.
Cos all i see are zeros its a cruel well trap
But we a finite simple group of order two.

I'm not the smoothest operator in my class
But we a mirror pair me and you
So lets apply forgetful flucters to the math
and be a finite simple group
be a finite simple group
lets be a finite simple group of order two.

I've prove my proposition now as you can see
So lets both be associates two and three
and by collarelations you and i to be
Purely inseparable
QETS.

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